My Feels.

A nostalgic day that’s what it is.

Literally and non-literally speaking we’re miles apart yet for some time today, i feel incredibly close to you. Memories sure does have that mystical powers to revive all the thoughts and feelings you’ve burried inside for so long.

What i think i miss is the thought of you waiting for me. But i’m flying too fast to let myself really miss the past. I don’t miss the past, i miss you.

You whisper and your voice gets soft and low and warm and i feel a pang of something deep in my chest because i like it, or i guess i used to like it because it was familiar and it was mine.

Talking about it doesn’t hurt, it just feels intense. But it’s still something that i think about and i wish you were here so i could know what you’re thinking, and also so i could hold you. I’m being too melancholic, sentimental, and lonely during this kind of time.

The thought of being with you is sort-of killing me. I have to turn the page back and forth, to make sure that the feelings i keep for so long are something worthy.

I tried hard explaining about what’s wrong and what’s happening but somehow it feels pointless because i can’t even put my finger to it.

I’ve been trying to cover up and conceal my feelings and pretending that i’m okay for sooo long. It comes to a point where i find myself breaking down in all of a sudden. I’ve been sinking for a long time, i just haven’t realized that i’m already at the bottom.

Sometimes things still doesn’t look real to me. How did we end up here? Where do we go from them?

But then it hits me, if we are able to continue loving properly. Even if the day that we must part comes. If there are days that i can think of you, i guess thats alright. And someday the meaning behind our separation will arrive. I’ll just keep off the radar for a while and take long walks around, in the middle of the night by myself. I think i’ll go stargazing on the roof and make up stories in my head.