Your Special Day

Happy Birthday, Love.

I’m not going to say your name, though I know you won’t see this.

But everyone who knows me will certainly know who you are.

You’ve already took a new step in life as you grow up, not only your age but your mind. You don’t know me and I doubt that you will. But I don’t mind,

To be completely honest I’m kind of sad because I realized it’s been 3 years i got caught up in you, and you still don’t know me. But love takes time right? And love worth the wait, isn’t it?

I’m wondering in this special day of yours what are you going to do? Are you going to throw a party? Having family dinner? Or celebrating it with you errr…. girlfriend? ah, it sounded bitter from my mouth. Okay, leave it there. Well, I am wondering what are you wishing for as you blow your candle later today? (timezone sucks, so I don’t really know when you will blow your candle).

Hmmm, the more I think about you the more I realize that you stand extremely— awfully far away from my grasp, it feels like I will never reach you.

Scratch that! I’m talking about your special day, and this writing is suppose to be about you.

Backt to the phase, are you happy right now? I hope you are. Because your happiness is mine, there it goes corny — cheesy line. I’m not good with words, never been. And it is hard for me to fathom the right words.

What do you usually have for your special day? A cake? Pizza? Turkey? Something fancy?

What are you going to wear? Black skinny jeans and t-shirt with boots? Or you perhaps want to look more decent by wearing suit? Or not. Well that’s all I can do; wondering.

For now, I probably can only wondering what would it be to be a part of your life. But I’m hoping one day, I could be a part of your life for real not only in my dream on my sleepless nights. Maybe one day I will stand beside you while you blow up your candle and cut the cake, and holding you saying happy birthday to you and tell you how much I love you.

But for now let me just represent my actions into words;

Happy Birthday, Love!

I’m hoping you the best in life, I’m hoping for your happiness, I’m hoping that everyone treats you right, I’m hoping you get what you wish for. And don’t forget to be grateful for everything that God has given to you, and may God’s blessings be upon you and your whole family. Many happy returns. And I love you like….i love you (guess how much?) well I love you like you wouldn’t believe.

With Love all the way from here, Clara.